Sunday, October 02, 2005
I HAVE CHANGED MY BLOG URL TO ILOVETOWAVE-.BLOGSPOT.COM.
goodbye buzzy-bee. :(
lovess.
thats what friends are for;
12:58 AM
Thursday, September 29, 2005
it's been a long day. i think i'm still suffering from my 230am latenight/earlymorning. sucks. ohwells. came home and crashed completely on the couch. didnt even shower before dinner. tssk.
i've decided i need to change my blog url. struck me when nut was saying my url out loud. scenario in JC:
"Got a blog?"
"yuppp"
"url?"
"er. buzzy-bee.blogspot.com"
OH DEAR THAT IS NOT GONNA WORK. instant popularity yeah? hohoho. with the bees. I WAS SEC2. -pouts.
today had our last chem pract before O's. it was so sad. and messy. and clumsy. hahaha. someone broke a conical flask i think, sam managed to rbeak not one but 2 pipettes and i broke a testtube. i'm pretty sure there were other breakages too. tsk tsk. oh wells. sam!!! I'M GONNA MISS DOING CHEM PRACTS WITH YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! YOU'LL FOREVER BE MY ONE AND ONLY CHEM PARTNER OKAY? *grins. loves!
many things have happened and it's killing me inside. but i guess it's liberating in some ways, exciting, refreshing. but i'm so scared.
"if there's anything i want, it's to know what to want."
-lovesss.
thats what friends are for;
10:56 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
you'll excel and leave me behind. it's okay though, i was happy to be up front and centre for a while.
it's time to be sidelined, baby.
you make me feel like i'm so small, yet like i can do anything.
change my world with your grin, make me smile.
i don't like the way you push me around. everyone has rights, right? then why do i feel inferior when it's my right of say?
don't hold me hostage in a world of free speech.
i like smiling. it's better than being upset.
flakiness to a certain extent is bearable.
quote of my life: "Sure, but if i get pregnant, are you ready to be the father of my child?"
loves.
thats what friends are for;
11:37 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
and it's you.
the light changes when you're in the room.
it's you, oh it's you.
i don't know how to reply.
i feel like i've been cut wide open.
how much of this goes back to her?
does she know everything that's going on now?
i can't bring myself to trust knowing i'm being scrutinised.
but it's all in the head, isn't it?
it's all in the head.
yet the reasons for us being apart are so clearly exhibited.
i just can't, i can't.
i'm sorry too.
you were my everything.
thats what friends are for;
9:59 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
5 hours in town with chiang, soph, tree, jen and mandy was a blast no doubt, but my limbs are paying for it (: loves! my shoulder esp. Sssttttttttttuuuuuupid order of the phoenix. i feel so dumb. ugh.
wanna hear a joke? except it's not really. well, came home from 5 hours in town, had dinner, and my parents took us where? to town! again! for another 2 hours of shopping! and you know what! tmr i'm gg shopping again! with my sis! maybe gg town! wow! and yest i wwent shopping for shoes too! but not in town! i tell you, my legs are gonna b-r-e-a-k. soon! nevermind! ((((((:
i feel spastic. i also walked into my basement door just now.
everytime i feel alone, i can blame it on you.
and i do.
as i close my eyes, i close my heart.
i can't take the 'what if's anymore, nor the waiting for smth that may never happen.
but i still do.
you know why?
cos it's only ever been you.
take me away, take me back.
let me trail your lips with my fingers; take my hand.
lovess-
thats what friends are for;
10:55 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
good friends never let you down;
thanks.
thats what friends are for;
10:30 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
haha. JOKING ((((((((:
well, i lied. i'm not okay. i'm not friggin okay. it's like a painful stab in my gut everytime i look over at you now. it's gonna take me a while before i'll be able to stare you in the eye without blinking away frustrations, anger, sadness. it's ironic that you knew this was one of the reasons for the other friendship is currently very much fragmentednow . and you also know how it feels. we've bitched about irrational behaviour in the past. i'm suddenly forced to think that it wasnt so irrational afterall. maybe we were the evil ones. guilt. shame. it's hard not to do it though, i know. environmental factors, emotions, shit stuff. you can't avoid it. but it hurts all the same. i'm not friggin okay. if ipush you away now, i hope like heck you have enough heart in you to know why. don't even try.
thats what friends are for;
1:41 PM
love my lil sis. love my bunny ears and halo more. *big grins.
